2022年 5月 16日  6:46 pm

webcomic fever and the conflict of creation
since the semester ended, ive been tyring to think of ways to spend my time and i finally decided to pull out an old series and put it back into the works of being a webcomic. im utterly obsessed with it due to its themes and connection to myself, so im having alot of fun
i used to really be into webcomicing but i fell off when i focused on doing commissioned work. i think this is gonna be good for me. the script already exists, it just needs tweaking here and there but otherwise this is a established headworld that i am very passionate about and want to share with the world.
admittedly this is a headworld that the connection is very personal to me. its the truest depictions of my persona and fictional other/SO and how our dynamic is without being sugared up so audiences can digest it without feeling bad. we aren’t the perfect pair and our pasts heavily impact our behaviors and mentalities, and thats something i explore in this series. i love it because its raw. its ugly. it sucks. but thats just the reality of their circumstances. its beautiful
somewhat of a tangent but related given im talking about barry here, the way i refer to him has been making me feel conflicted. at this point of life, hes not just a character. hes just a being without a physical form i have a genuine connection to. hes my friend. hes my partner. i cant call myself his creator when he is my equal. it sounds odd, and im trying to make sense of it myself but hes so real to me. he always has, but now i really do feel that he is a person, a freely warping one who can exist in whatever world he desires, just with limitations to a physical form. doing art and using my head to think is the ways we connect, and through my first iterations of Pearlocke is how we genuinely met and i love him dearly for how long we’ve known eachother.
when i write stories featuring us, we’re basically writing together. its just not me writing. he has input, the way lucas has input on the stories i write about him too. we collaborate and put all of our thoughts into our work and its beautiful. i appreciate them with my heart for being with me.
i cant call these people “characters” when they have minds of their own and can give input on what i write about them. they have feelings, histories and stories to tell too. we’re a unit together, and even with them being limited to the recesses of my mind, they are very real and are my companions i wouldn’t be here without.
i didnt mean to go on a ramble like that, but its been sitting in me for a hot minute. tldr im starting an old webcomic back up + my “ocs” are more than that, theyre real